I just found out my uncle is going to die very soon and is sadly very sick.
This would be big news to me but death is sinister on my part.
I've watched most of my family pass away throuhout the years.
I have lost great grandparents on both sides, my grandma and grandpa, my unlce, my aunt, a close family friend or two, and a cousin. The most common reason being drugs and alcohol overdose. I'm not informing you for sympathy, however I did want to let some of you

That you never have as much time as you think you do to apologize for the little things.
Greiving is a state in which doesn't ever permanently go away it's something that as time passes you drift away from it more often. The good things are the ones that slip away if you let them, and your past memories that were your worst taunt you for months.



Also, if you have ever planned on taking your own life away or are planning to. Don't. A piece of someone dies everytime someone is permanently gone. Maybe the girl of your dreams was never there for you but there are plenty others greater. Maybe your father walked out on you he isn't strong enough to be a dad and you learn to do better for your own children. Your mom and you get in constant arguements, that's usually because you both have similiar personality and charector traits. The boy you'd die for is a dick, we've seen this a million times and you were better off. Your bestfriend betrayed you, hope your back hurt there knife I don't believe there is truly anything at a young age worth dying for.


P.S My first journal entry sorry if it's not up to your "expectations" aha